Soren Says...

Warning - extreme heart melt here.

Two days ago, and no - I will never forget this, Soren was determined to eat the Mango, the ONE Mango we had.  

'Momma, please slice the Mango, it's ready.  It's ripe!' (me having just sat down with a nice cup of tea - mind you, he'd just eaten a HUGE lunch).

'Bud - I will cut it up before the sitter gets here and you can have it then.  You are getting ready to leave anyway.'

A bit of a fuss - but completely understood.  And yes - he was about to leave.

Upon return.

'Hi Momma!!  Can I have that Mango now?'

'Yep!  I will go slice it!'

I proceed to slice up the Mango and he happily prances off with it in a bowl.  I sit down next to him on the couch and give him a smooch on the head.  He responds by grabbing my hand and saying (warning, here it comes),

'I am going to give you 10 smooches!!!'

and proceeds with 10 smooches on the hand.  Counting after each one.  Then I ask,

'Is that because I finally cut up your Mango for you???'

he says, mater of fact,

'No.  It's because you're my Momma and I love you so much.'

and without skipping a beat - returns to devouring his Mango.  My heart was a puddle of motherly goo.

The Journey

'We've been so busy...Sorry I haven't gotten around to...Yikes - last week was like a whirlwind!' 

These lines have graced the blog far too often these days.  What I keep forgetting about is the journey.

I've been listening to some Alan Watts lately and this one in particular really hit me (thank you Rick):

It isn't about the possibility of a Grammy or the finished CD product - it's really the journey getting there.  The obstacles to overcome - the tuning, editing, mixing and mastering.  It's about studying what makes a mix more than listenable - but moving.  Like Joe said to Rick and I during the recording of the project

'it's all theater.  People don't really want the moment they experienced, they want something better!'.  That's my job, day in and day out.

Creating something meaningful and moving.  Something that grabs the attention of listeners.  And through that, is a process.  A complicated, involved - very personal process.  It's quite a journey.  So in the midst of stressful deadlines and final products, Watts and Henry remind me to stay inside of the journey.  Not let my mind wander from the beauty that is the process.  

It's not about the product and what that brings - because when you get there, you are left with the same bag of meaning (or meaningless) as before if you're void during the journey.

With Soren - it's about every moment.  Every trial and tribulation.  Celebrating my moments raising a human being - watching him become his own person.  Not if he will go to college, or back pack through Europe, etc... Those things will come in their own time.

My 2015 is truly becoming about the journey.  My moments with Soren, work and personal life.  I don't want to be 40 and a part of the hoax.  I want to sing and dance WHILE the music is being played.


'A portrait a week of my children, once a week, every week, in 2015'

This week was a tough choice between end result and process (see below), so I had to include both.  Park weather!  We are so pumped.  Soren has an INSANE amount of energy and this kid is up for any type of running, climbing and outdoor shenanigans.  Love it!


'A portrait a week of my children, once a week, every week, in 2015'

'The cookies are TOO hot momma!  You have to be patient and let them cool down!'  Soren baking me imaginary cookies and coffee.  But I 'can only have 3.  Anymore and you will get a belly ache'.  Surreal hearing your toddler dictate the rules back to you.  But he's correct!  No belly ache please! 

Lately - Recording

Been busy in these parts (I know - redundant, just about all you here from me lately, but true).

Working through a TON of post-production work, including masters of the MusicNow festival.  So amazing to say the least, as you can see from my look of enthusiasm below.

Fan girl?  Mmm, perhaps.  Still can't get over that weekend.  Reminds me why I choose to be in a creative field with the likes of these genius minds.  Truly inspiring. (Yes, Isaac.  You are brilliant.  Thanks for being you and crazily enthused about music).

Amongst the album projects, subscription recordings and broadcasts - I peeled away some time to go to my home town, the Lou, to hang with family and good, amazingly talented friends.  I am continually amazed to hear and see the work my colleagues are doing in St. Louis.  An inspiring and humbling visit.  

And yep! - dorks.  Although, I have to admit - I was participating but had to peel away to snag the pic.  Love you guys!

And I got to catch up briefly with this gent.  Barry is the reason I am in this industry to begin with (yes, I blame you!).  I tried to quit after Audio I and he threatened to hunt me down and tie me to the Audio II chair.  I was going to do this whether I like it or not 'because you have the ears dammit, you just need to listen like an engineer AND a musician!'.  

Miss this guy and was so so happy to see him.  He has no idea how much his teaching has meant to me through the years.  Truly a mentor (and you too Paul.  Pan West suckaz!).

Back to catching up on masters, producing broadcasts, editing/mixing American Originals and LumenSessions.  Material coming soon!

PS - Oh! And hanging with this very cool wee man.  All signed up for camps this summer - Ballet (Peter Pan!!), Rock Climbing, the Zoo and swim lessons!  Woot!